I have just come home from five weeks in the Clinic in Burwood following a suicide attempt. As before the care, there was fantastic. Good informative Groups addressing many different disorders. Healthy food and a fully equipped gym and Cafe. All you need to make a recovery and work towards healing.
The only problem is my suicidality remains!!!! My husband has taken me home knowing full well I have a suicide plan and he stands between it and my life. He is an amazing, strong, compassionate and loving partner. My kids are awesome too. They understand my Complex PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder and accommodate it and all it brings.
My psychiatrist saw me twice a week and spoke to the alters that are suicidal and tried to convince them the I could get better and they didn’t need to make me carry out suicide. They wouldn’t listen and repeatedly said that I had to die as I was responsible for the abuse I suffered from the paedophile ring from the age of 4 to 18. No amount of him saying I was the victim impacted. I was just a child. I had nothing to be ashamed of. The men were wholly responsible for the abuse that was perpetrated against me. The alters don’t believe it.
It’s very frustrating for everyone concerned.
He has put me on Lithium as it is meant to be very good for reducing suicidality. It is a last ditch attempt combined with therapy and other medications I am on to keep me alive.
What is Lithium?
Lithium compounds, also known as lithium salts, are primarily used as a psychiatric medication. This includes the treatment of major depressive disorder that does not improve following the use of other antidepressants, and bipolar disorder. In these disorders, it reduces the risk of suicide. Lithium is taken by mouth with food.
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