Lithium And Its’ Effects On Suicide

I have just come home from five weeks in the Clinic in Burwood following a suicide attempt. As before the care, there was fantastic. Good informative Groups addressing many different disorders. Healthy food and a fully equipped gym and Cafe. All you need to make a recovery and work towards healing.

The only problem is my suicidality remains!!!! My husband has taken me home knowing full well I have a suicide plan and he stands between it and my life. He is an amazing, strong, compassionate and loving partner. My kids are awesome too. They understand my Complex PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder and accommodate it and all it brings.

My psychiatrist saw me twice a week and spoke to the alters that are suicidal and tried to convince them the I could get better and they didn’t need to make me carry out suicide. They wouldn’t listen and repeatedly said that I had to die as I was responsible for the abuse I suffered from the paedophile ring from the age of 4 to 18. No amount of him saying I was the victim impacted. I was just a child. I had nothing to be ashamed of. The men were wholly responsible for the abuse that was perpetrated against me. The alters don’t believe it.

It’s very frustrating for everyone concerned.

He has put me on Lithium as it is meant to be very good for reducing suicidality. It is a last ditch attempt combined with therapy and other medications I am on to keep me alive.

What is Lithium?

Lithium compounds, also known as lithium salts, are primarily used as a psychiatric medication. This includes the treatment of major depressive disorder that does not improve following the use of other antidepressants, and bipolar disorder. In these disorders, it reduces the risk of suicide. Lithium is taken by mouth with food.

I am very heartened by all the research I have done and forums I have visited that it is very effective in reducing suicidality. I can only hope. It would change my life if I didn’t have to suffer from such a condition with ideation and intrusive thoughts occupying much of my head space.

For more information on CPTSD and other issues visit our YouTube Channel

If you need support or would like to connect with like-minded people join our Private and Closed online Facebook Group for Child Abuse Survivors and those with CPTSD. Click here to join

The Memoir You Will Bear Witness is available on Amazon in Kindle and Paperback

3 comments

  1. Um, why is your psychiatrist arguing with your suicidal others? To me, it seems obvious that viewpoint is very much from a child point of view, emotionally, and needs to be dealt with from a similar perspective. Have they talked it out, let out all of their feelings, without judgement and knowing they are heard and still loved?

    I felt guilty for what happened to me and it tore me just for those same reasons, it wasn’t my fault. Yet, pushing that guilt away didn’t help. I had to say, yes I feel guilt, I feel anger at my others, that I held them responsible for what happened. They also had to stop fighting it and accept that’s what I felt without getting defensive. They had to say they were sorry. They had to offer me the apology I was never gonna hear otherwise. Even though, ultimately, they were never at fault. But my emotions don’t know that. They are more like a child’s.

    A good friend had all of us doing sentences. That did not go over well nor easy. But simple. I love you. I forgive you. Dayes and Days of sentences. More like a month per alt, in some cases two months, twice a day, almost 50 sets at a time. Lots and lots of paper. But it sunk in. It really created change even though we fought it hard.

    Hang in there. The above is how I did. Maybe it will be of use. It can be overcome.

    • Hi Isabella, thanks for getting in touch. I appreciate what you have said and will try to do the sentences. Perhaps that will get through to the alters. They feel such shame and guilt that is why they are so suicidal. I am too. My psychiatrist doesn’t argue with the alters he just tries to persuade them that working with him with bringing peace and relief. He is very worried about me and was reluctant to discharge me from the clinic. All the best Erin.

      • Hugs to you if you want them. I’m glad you have support. Please keep writing. You’ve helped me a bunch over the years. So I know there must be others that have been as well. Maybe others will share what they have learned too. All the best you, Isa and the Peanut Gallery. 😉

I would love to hear from you so please leave a comment. All feedback is much appreciated. Thank you. Erin

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.