Grief and Mental Health

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Losing someone you love whether you have a mental illness or not, is one of the hardest things we go through in life; it’s extremely tough to deal with someone dear to you passing away. During these times of grief it’s vital we look after our mental health.

A dear friend and loved one

A year ago today I lost someone very important to me, a dear friend and loved one, someone who was a vital part of my life and always has been. She has always been an integral part of my life since I was a baby, and despite her passing, she will always be with me. She was one of the most lovely, caring and funny people that I have ever met. She had a pure and loving soul, always there for her children,  and family in every way she could possibly be.  She was always there for me if I needed her,  and one of my favourite people ever. She will always be all of these things, and she will always be with me and with those of us who feel her loss in our lives. She was an amazing mother to her children, a true friend to so many and so much more. She is in my thoughts every day, but today especially so I thought I would write a post with her in mind.

Grief is individual to each of us

Grief can come in so many forms and there is no one right way to deal with it or to feel it. There are different stages of grief but you don’t have to experience these stages in a linear fashion or at any certain time, or in any particular way. The way you experience your grief at a loss is completely individual to you, you should never feel pressured to feel or act in a certain way, or to grief on a particular timeline. Whatever you are feeling is completely valid. Everybody goes through things differently and this is ok: we don’t have to deal with a loss like other people are, we deal with it in our own way and it’s important to keep this in mind and not compare ourselves to others.

Allow yourself to feel your emotions

When you are going through times like these, one of the most important things is to know that it is ok to not be ok. You don’t have to be strong all the time, you are allowed to feel the deep loss and high emotions that come with this. You don’t need to bottle things up or try to be stronger than you really feel, allow yourself to feel however you are truly feeling inside. A loss is just that, a loss in your life and that naturally comes with varying emotions. Allowing yourself to feel these emotions is never ever a sign of weakness.

The Five Stages of Grief

5stages2Denial is the first of the five stages of grief. It helps us to survive the loss. In this stage, the world becomes meaningless and overwhelming. Life makes no sense. We are in a state of shock and denial. We go numb. We wonder how we can go on, if we can go on, why we should go on. We try to find a way to simply get through each day. Denial and shock help us to cope and make survival possible. Denial helps us to pace our feelings of grief. There is a grace in denial. It is nature’s way of letting in only as much as we can handle. As you accept the reality of the loss and start to ask yourself questions, you are unknowingly beginning the healing process. You are becoming stronger, and the denial is beginning to fade. But as you proceed, all the feelings you were denying begin to surface.

5stages3Anger is a necessary stage of the healing process. Be willing to feel your anger, even though it may seem endless. The more you truly feel it, the more it will begin to dissipate and the more you will heal. There are many other emotions under the anger and you will get to them in time, but anger is the emotion we are most used to managing. The truth is that anger has no limits. It can extend not only to your friends, the doctors, your family, yourself and your loved one who died. Underneath anger is pain, your pain. It is natural to feel deserted and abandoned, but we live in a society that fears anger. Anger is strength and it can be an anchor, giving temporary structure to the nothingness of loss. At first grief feels like being lost at sea: no connection to anything. Then you get angry at someone, maybe a person who didn’t attend the funeral, maybe a person who isn’t around, maybe a person who is different now that your loved one has died. Suddenly you have a structure – – your anger toward them. The anger becomes a bridge over the open sea, a connection from you to them. It is something to hold onto; and a connection made from the strength of anger feels better than nothing.We usually know more about suppressing anger than feeling it. The anger is just another indication of the intensity of your love.

5stages4Bargaining. Before a loss, it seems like you will do anything if only your loved one would be spared. “Please God, ” you bargain, “I will never be angry at my wife again if you’ll just let her live.” After a loss, bargaining may take the form of a temporary truce. “What if I devote the rest of my life to helping others. Then can I wake up and realize this has all been a bad dream?” We become lost in a maze of “If only…” or “What if…” statements. We want life returned to what is was; we want our loved one restored. We want to go back in time: find the tumor sooner, recognize the illness more quickly, stop the accident from happening…if only, if only, if only. Guilt is often bargaining’s companion. The “if onlys” cause us to find fault in ourselves and what we “think” we could have done differently. We may even bargain with the pain. We will do anything not to feel the pain of this loss. We remain in the past, trying to negotiate our way out of the hurt. People often think of the stages as lasting weeks or months. They forget that the stages are responses to feelings that can last for minutes or hours as we flip in and out of one and then another. We do not enter and leave each individual stage in a linear fashion. We may feel one, then another and back again to the first one.

5stages5Depression. After bargaining, our attention moves squarely into the present. Empty feelings present themselves, and grief enters our lives on a deeper level, deeper than we ever imagined. This depressive stage feels as though it will last forever. It’s important to understand that this depression is not a sign of mental illness. It is the appropriate response to a great loss. We withdraw from life, left in a fog of intense sadness, wondering, perhaps, if there is any point in going on alone? Why go on at all? Depression after a loss is too often seen as unnatural: a state to be fixed, something to snap out of. The first question to ask yourself is whether or not the situation you’re in is actually depressing. The loss of a loved one is a very depressing situation, and depression is a normal and appropriate response. To not experience depression after a loved one dies would be unusual. When a loss fully settles in your soul, the realization that your loved one didn’t get better this time and is not coming back is understandably depressing. If grief is a process of healing, then depression is one of the many necessary steps along the way.

5stages6Acceptance is often confused with the notion of being “all right” or “OK” with what has happened. This is not the case. Most people don’t ever feel OK or all right about the loss of a loved one. This stage is about accepting the reality that our loved one is physically gone and recognizing that this new reality is the permanent reality. We will never like this reality or make it OK, but eventually we accept it. We learn to live with it. It is the new norm with which we must learn to live. We must try to live now in a world where our loved one is missing. In resisting this new norm, at first many people want to maintain life as it was before a loved one died. In time, through bits and pieces of acceptance, however, we see that we cannot maintain the past intact. It has been forever changed and we must readjust. We must learn to reorganize roles, re-assign them to others or take them on ourselves. Finding acceptance may be just having more good days than bad ones. As we begin to live again and enjoy our life, we often feel that in doing so, we are betraying our loved one. We can never replace what has been lost, but we can make new connections, new meaningful relationships, new inter-dependencies. Instead of denying our feelings, we listen to our needs; we move, we change, we grow, we evolve. We may start to reach out to others and become involved in their lives. We invest in our friendships and in our relationship with ourselves. We begin to live again, but we cannot do so until we have given grief its time.

Reach out for support

Remember that supporting one another through a loss is important, pulling together and being there for one another if and when you can. Having a support system of people there who can reach out to one another, talk to each other and encourage one another can make the world of difference.

It’s so important to your mental health to reach out if you are having a hard time, it’s important you know you are never alone. Whether this is your support system, your friends and family and other people who are grieving, a helpline, a professional or a support group, anyone that you feel comfortable talking to. It’s important not to feel isolated, you can ask for help if you need it.

If you are struggling with a mental illness, remember to keep your mental health team updated whether this is your doctor, physiatrist or therapist, so that the professionals who are treating you are aware of what is going on and can be ready to offer additional support if needed.

Lastly, I just want to say that if you are grieving the loss of someone, please be very kind to yourself. It’s such a hard thing to go through and you are doing amazing. You are strong and you are wonderful.

I would love to hear from you so please leave a comment. All feedback is much appreciated. Thank you. Erin

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