What Kind Of Mindset Does Someone Have To Be In To Reach The Point Of Suicide?

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What kind of mindset does someone have to be in to reach the point of suicide? After all, many people think about suicide without ever making an attempt.

While it doesn’t answer what drives someone to that ultimate decision, there is a concept called cognitive constriction that explains what happens in the brain during a suicidal crisis.

“The actual physiological functioning of certain parts of the brain changes in this acute suicidal moment,” said Dr. Christine Moutier, chief medical officer of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. “What’s happening in the brain is there’s a narrowing of coping options that stems from changes in the brain’s ability to come up with three or four ideas to problem-solve, like it usually would.”

“It’s really hard to fight with your own brain,” Moutier said. “It’s not letting you access your other ways of thinking.”

Cognitive constriction is often described as a feeling of tunnel vision, as if you’re seeing through a straw, or wearing blinders. People in this state can’t see beyond their circumstances, and don’t believe their pain will ever end. That’s why we hear suicide attempt survivors say phrases like, “I thought it was the only way out.” This also helps dispel the myth that people who die by suicide are weak or selfish; in that state, those traits are irrelevant.

“I’ve heard it described as a mental toothache,” said Dr. Stacey Freedenthal, a psychotherapist in Denver who wrote about her own suicide attempt in The New York Times. “If you have a toothache, all you can think about is the pain in your tooth. And combine that with the conviction that this pain will never end.”

This mental distortion isn’t permanent, but people can’t see that in the moment. That’s part of the reason suicidal people are counseled to come up with safety plans to turn to in a time of crisis, which often consist of a list of people to contact and activities that will calm them down and provide distraction.

Some suicidal gun owners are urged to store their guns outside of the home, or, according to one news story, even freeze their bullets in ice cube trays, with the thinking that by the time the person obtains the means to die, the urge will have passed. And oftentimes, people experiencing cognitive constriction can’t think creatively enough to find an alternate method, Moutier said.

That’s not to say that no suicides are premeditated. Certainly, many are. And while there are countless factors that can contribute to one’s wish to take his or her own life, the ultimate decision is often an impulsive one. Kevin Hines, who survived a leap from the Golden Gate Bridge, has famously said that in the moments after he jumped, he regretted his suicide attempt.

The message is simple: If you can stand to wait, the moment may pass.

“It’s a short period when for a few minutes, maybe up to an hour, that cognitive constriction occurs,” Moutier said. “And that transient nature of the physical change is why if people can live through it, they can regain their usual healthy coping functions and survive long beyond that moment.”

Why most suicide attempt survivors are women

Men are far more likely to die by suicide than women, but more women than men attempt suicide. And most suicide attempt survivors are women. While the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention tracks suicide deaths, but not suicide attempts (it does gather data from hospitals on nonfatal self-harm injuries, but not all of those are necessarily suicide attempts), experts estimate that women attempt suicide somewhere between two and four times more often than me.

There are many factors that contribute to the fatality difference, but one is guns. “Definitely men use firearms more than women, and women use pills more often, and the fatality rate for the two is very different,” Freedenthal said.

Firearms accounted for 51 percent of all suicides in 2016. That doesn’t mean that half of people are reaching for guns when they attempt suicide — but the margin of error is certainly much smaller when they do. While experts are hesitant to discuss suicide methods by fatality rates, out of fear of encouraging someone to choose one over another, it’s safe to say that the odds of someone intentionally overdosing on medication are significantly smaller.

 

Freedenthal has heard about another potential reason for the fatality differences between the sexes, which is based on the idea that women are more likely than men to ask for help when they’re struggling with suicidal feelings.

“The theory is that, as a result, men are more likely to choose a method with a high fatality rate because it may be more abhorrent for them to consider they might survive, and then others would know, and they would need to ask for help,” she added.

But the factors aren’t all sociocultural — we can blame biology in part, too. Mood disorders, which include depression and anxiety, and are a great risk factor for suicide, are far more common in women than men. So are eating disorders.

“So there is a setup, already, that tilts more in the direction of girls and women,” Moutier said.

A difficult conversation

It’s not easy to talk about suicide deaths, but there is at least a recognizable pattern: initial shock followed by a search for missed warning signs and a general delving into someone’s past, followed by a well-meaning but short-lived dispersal of prevention and awareness messages.

But many suicide attempt survivors feel like they’re in an odd place, languishing in some sort of liminal state: They’re not merely pondering suicide. They’ve crossed the line and made serious attempts to end their lives. Yet they’re alive — and dealing with the aftermath.

“We scare the bejesus out of people,” said Jacqueline Elder, a retired therapist and suicide attempt survivor in Chicago who runs a Facebook support group for fellow survivors. “What most clinicians are trained to do is, you just stick the client in the inpatient psych unit as soon as you can. For those of us who suffer from suicidality, we have this huge fear of being incarcerated in inpatient units.”

Others figure they’re beyond treatment.

“When a therapist hears that I’ve shot myself and taken 900 pills … a lot of therapists don’t want to work with someone who’s had those types of events,” Richard Cole said.

While loved ones can play an important role in someone’s recovery after a suicide attempt — experts say just talking and being available is hugely helpful — families may also be at a loss, unsure of what to say or how to behave. And many survivors describe feeling like a burden, not wanting to ask for help, creating a harmful cycle and making connections even harder to foster. Take Shih, who describes her eating issues and depression as “chronic.”

“If I ask for help once, then that just puts a long-term burden on them, too,” she said. “And I don’t think that’s fair.”

RICHARD COLE has thought about suicide every day since he was a child.

“It was such an ingrained part of my thought process,” he said. “I would wake up every single day and (think), ‘I can get up and I can brush my teeth, or I can kill myself. I can go to school today, or I can kill myself.’”

“As a 10-year-old with that kind of sadness, and desire to not be around, you’re separate from society,” Cole continued. “Even though you’re in a class with 20 other kids, you’re by yourself. The adults don’t understand you, and the kids don’t understand you.”

He knew he was different from a young age.

“I never thought about what I wanted to be when I grew up,” Cole said. “You speak to other 10-year-olds (and they say), ‘Oh, I want to be a fireman, I want to be a scientist, I want to be a policeman.’”

Cole understood their dreams — he just couldn’t see any for himself: “‘I don’t want to be anything. I’m going to be dead by the time I’m 18,’ is what I thought.’”

On Nov. 26, 1998, a 27-year-old Cole shot himself in the chest with a 9 mm handgun.

“I remember it was cold because I have this big, poufy down coat on that I shot myself through, and there were feathers everywhere,” he said. “I have this vision of me falling to the ground with these bloody feathers.”

Against medical odds, he survived, waking up in a hospital. (About 15 percent of people survive suicide attempts by gun, according to research.)

Cole, now 47, makes the distinction between suicidal ideation — thinking about suicide — and being suicidal, which for him means actually considering the act of ending his life. He has experienced suicidal ideation for as long as he can remember, but feeling suicidal comes and goes.  He figures it will be that way for the rest of his life.

“I don’t know that I’ll ever get rid of my suicidal ideation, but I’m not acting on it,” he said. “I’m a lot better than I used to be. No one’s ever going to be perfect.”

Cole said his family experienced “compassion fatigue” after years of hearing him talk about suicide, and helping him recover from his self-inflicted gunshot wound.

“They’ve dealt with me my whole life,” he said. “I’ve been the black sheep for 40-something years. I know that my parents love me, but there’s only so much you can do.”

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