Child Abuse and the Five Stages of Grief


As always people, particularly psychologists, can categorise everything that happens to us in our lives. For example, it has been suggested that there are four phases of response to being violated. The first reaction is disbelief and shock (in some cases where adults have only just realised they were abused as children, this initial phase can be delayed). This is then followed by a ‘frozen fright’, a sort of detached pseudo calm during which the victim is compliant and appeasing. (It is this appearance of cooperation that will be confused with consent when the victim looks back on the experience). The third phase is a delayed but chronic traumatic depression combined with ’bouts of apathy, anger, resignation, resentment, constipated rage, insomnia,’ and repeated replaying of events. The final phase is characterised by resolving the traumatic experience and integrating it into the victimised person’s behaviour and lifestyle.

Before this fourth phase can occur, a grief process must take place. ‘Grief!!…’ I hear you cry, ‘…isn’t that when somebody dies?’ Well, actually whenever something is taken away from somebody he or she will experience a grief response. In the case of victims of child abuse, you have probably lost your innocence, your childhood, the ability to trust, etc. Everyone grieves in their own way but they all tend to follow a pattern. This pattern is known as the five stages of grief.

People move between the different stages at different rates and can jump around between each phase. Recovery is more of a process than an event. Is important that although talk of phases and stages seems very cold and clinical you must remember that you are suffering inside and any discussion of recovery must be done slowly and methodically. Take your time and treat yourself gently.

Grieving is a personal process that has no time limit, nor one “right” way to do it.

Every person has experienced or will experience a loss in their lifetime. The loss may due to the death of a loved one, the end of a close relationship, the loss of a pet, or the loss of innocence through sexual abuse. As we encounter a loss, we find ourselves in the stages of mourning and grief. Losing something precious and meaningful really creates an emotional roller-coaster of painful feelings. This is a very sad and uncomfortable time in our lives. But there is always HOPE!

Some children are very good at keeping their emotions hidden deep inside. They do not cry or show outward signs of distress. When you look at them, they may appear sad or despondent, but they are unable to verbalise their feelings. For other children, they may cry, scream, and engage in destructive behaviour, as they express their feelings. They leave little to the imagination about how they are feeling. Neither of these children is more or less impacted by their loss; they just have different ways of expressing their feelings.

Elisabeth Kübler-Ross in her book “On Death and Dying” lists the five stages of grief. I believe abused children and their families go through these same loss and grief stages as they learn there is hope and healing after child abuse.

1. Denial and Isolation: No one wants to believe someone would hurt an innocent child. The first reaction is, “No, this cannot be true.” This is a normal defence mechanism that helps buffer the shock. It is an immediate response that helps carry families through the initial disclosure. Many children and families, just want to be left alone to deal with the pain. Time is their friend.

2. Anger: As reality sets in, families are not ready to address the issue they face. Slowly, anger becomes an outlet to express the pain. Anger is redirected to other people, friends, family members or complete strangers. During this time, it is just easier to be mad and angry, than to deal with the abuse. It is normal to be angry and upset when a child is abused. This coping mechanism allows families to “vent”, as they slowly comprehend what is has happened.

3. Bargaining: At this stage, the family begins to deal with the fact that the horrible act of abuse actually occurred. Feelings of anger, helplessness and hopelessness are redirected as the family struggles to regain control. Thoughts enter the minds: 1) If only I had been a better parent; 2) If only I had not left my child with…3) If only I had listened more; and the list goes on. The family is literally torn apart, emotionally and many times physically.

4. Depression: Often family members become depressed and overcome with feelings of sadness and regret. They worry about how to get their child help, what if they there are court proceedings? What if the offender is the dad and he is sent to jail? How are we going to pay the household bills? How are we going to survive this ordeal? And, the list goes on. This is an intense, panicky kind of depression. Then there is depression which is more private. Families grieve over the lost innocence of their child. They grieve for what was and think about what could have been.

5. Acceptance: Gradually, the families begin to accept what has happened, realising that they do not have to be brave, but that life will go on. They begin to find moments of happiness as the blanket of sadness and hopelessness gradually begins to fade. Not all people will be able to reach this stage of grief, especially not quickly. It takes time, hard work and a willingness to move forward.

Working through grief is not an easy process. Although there are stages of grief that each person walks through, the stages are not always progressive. Many times people work through one stage of grief to wake up the next morning and find themselves back to the hopeless, bottomless pit of feeling helpless.

Personally, I am at the stage of Bargaining. I still cannot believe it happened and find it hard to reconcile that my Mother was the catalyst for all of the abuse. It makes all the more complicated that I suffer from Dissociated Identity Disorder and she is one of my main Alters and very destructive ones intent on causing me great harm. I also have Stockholm Syndrome so this makes therapy very complicated as I come to her defence rather than blame her for her actions.

The five Stages of Grief are not linear as mentioned earlier and I move through them at different times. At times I am wracked sobbing in the therapist’s rooms for loss of my childhood, at other times angry at the men for the repeated abuse for fourteen years and other times as mentioned in total disbelief that it happened at all. There are moments of peace where I accept what happened and believe I can move on so there is hope. Grief is a very complicated and painful process for those who have experienced profound child abuse.


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  2. After working with children and young adults in support roles carrying out research I wrote “What If I Go?”
    This is fiction for students to tip them off about the dangers of grooming and exploitation from gangs.
    Please get back if you’d like a free copy to review to help me empower survivors.
    Best wishes, Polly

    • Hi Polly
      Thanks for getting in touch. I would love a copy of your book. It would be great to read it and do a review for my readers on my blog as I am sure it would be of benefit to many of them. Congratulations on writing your book. Not an easy thing to do. Have a peaceful Christmas

      My address is Erin Fado, Care of Andrew Inglis, Jyndarra Lodge, 730 Wombeyan Caves Road, High Range, NSW 2575, Australia.

      Many thanks


      • Thanks so much for your kind attention! I will pop one in the post to you in the new year to avoid the Christmas post. That is unless you’d prefer an ebook?
        Best regards, and good health for Christmas and the year ahead.
        Polly White

      • Hi Polly

        Thanks but I’d prefer a hard copy. Easier to work with. Looking forward to reading it. Have a good Christmas. All the best Erin

      • Hi Polly nice to hear from you. Your book arrived yesterday. Thank you very much. I love the cover and look forward to reading it. I am just about finished reading Michelle Obama’s Becoming so I will read your book when I’ve finished that and get back to you. I appreciate you sending it to me so promptly. Happy New Year. Hope 2019 is a good year for you. All the best Erin

      • That’s a tall order for me to live up to, following Michelle Obama!
        Your support is much appreciated. Best wishes, Polly
        ps If only I had her advantage of being a household name. Then again, she seems authentically an inspirational person. Be built up by her hope.

      • She is very inspiring. I’m really enjoying the book. It’s great to read about a time when American politics had hope unlike the time of Trump. Nearly finished and looking forward to your book. Erin

      • Hi Polly no I haven’t been able to finish the book. I’m in a clinic at the moment and have been for five weeks and forgot to bring it in with me. I find your book quite triggering so I have to be in the right space to read it and I’m not in that space right now. So far what I’ve read is it is well written. Sorry I’ll finish it soon. Hope you’re well. All the best Erin.

      • Oh, that’s such a relief that you are okay. I sometimes worry when people go quiet on me. I trust that your time in clinic will be effective. Your authentic feedback will be amazing. Endless possibility for helping others may well follow. Take good care. THANKS EVERSO!

      • Hi Polly

        Thanks for your reply. Good to hear from you. I’m going home today ! At last. Can’t wait. Partner and one of my kids picking me up any minute. It’s been a very beneficial visit. The psychiatrist and psychotherapist have done some good work with the alters and have integrated three of the younger ones so that’s fantastic. We’ve discovered the persecutor alter who is responsible for all the self-harm and suicide attempts was a protector when I was young. She only turned nasty in 2012 out of guilt and shame. It’s all very complicated. I’ll settle in back home and then start reading your book again. All the best Erin.

      • Your review was so helpful. Thanks very much. Keep well.
        You bear witness with grace and generosity. Praying for more healing.
        Keep in touch, please.

      • Thanks Polly. I’d appreciated it. I’m very nervous now that my story is out there. There will be repercussions and I hope I am strong enough to deal with them. Thanks for your support. All the best Erin

      • When I was first published I likened it to standing naked in the market square in a city and people having a good stare. You are such a strong woman you are now raising awareness for other vulnerable innocents. Trusting that all the repercussions add up to healing and blessings.

      • Thanks Polly that is exactly what it feels like !!! Good analogy. I have changed places and names but am still worried that my family might read it and put two and two together but I really wanted the story out there to help other people just like your book has done. Thanks for the words of encouragement. They mean a lot. All the best Erin.

      • Thanks so much. Once I’m finished your memoirs I’ll make another post directing my followers to it and my review. You bodly voice your story and of other innocents.
        That takes so much guts. I admire your compassion.
        Stay confident, please, you have done a worthwhile thing. The truth is honoured in your well-being.

      • Hi Polly the post on your book got 673 likes so hopefully some of those translate into sales. Thanks for reading my memoir. It’s not easy reading so I really appreciate it. All the best Erin

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